** I admire my friends who have started blogging. I started a couple years ago but slacked off for a while. Then I got all bloggy during the election campaign and immediately thereafter went silent again. Since Grits and Kathleen Ream have gotten active I think about it again.
And then I remember why I go silent now and then. I am part of a culture that doesn’t like independent “publishing.” It’s seen as too “personal” and therefore not very spiritual. So my blog has usually consisted of posting pieces from other sources with a brief comment or two. What I envy about Grits and KR is their freedom to lay it all out there. I feel inhibited about that.
Several years ago I made a commitment to be the ward of a group of spiritual students and the organization that authorizes me has strict rules about what people like me can do. If I don’t follow them they could disband my group, which would really hurt their feelings and make some things inconvenient for them. So my loyalty to my students keeps me reticent. In public. Because in private most people, including many students, know I'm bursting with ideas and opinions, many of which are contrary to the culture.
So until I figure out what to do about this I guess I'll just keep envying my blogging friends, none of whom envy me for the responsibilities I bear for my small band of students.
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